Strumming from the Soul

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Xiang An aka Reaper
20 February 1992
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Wednesday, April 30, 2008



Okay, another boring day at school. At least tmr's a holiday!

Not that I'll be enjoying, I have to study hard and prepare for my mid years! Although I know I'll end up sleeping in late and using com for the whole day and just study 3 hours. Hah.

Focused group was fun :D The teacher had a strange resemblance to Charles Rajan. Like really, the way he speaks and dress is totally like charles rajan. Then he dropped a super direct hint. So we know exactly what to study for now :D

Maths was like crap. Got differentiation and proving trigo in the same question! We shouldn't be expected to differentiate trigo and prove it equals to something in the same question! That is like so unfair I almost overloaded my brain figuring it out. Damn.

At home and slack now, probably will do so until super late :x

--Xiang An at 4:51 PM


Saturday, April 26, 2008



My 2nd post today. Just had to get things off my chest. Just got back from tuition, my mood took a nosedive. Those in the know should be able to guess why. Just when I think I'm over it, things get complicated again. I hate this. Why is life so complicated? Why can't it just be simple and predictable?

I want to go back to my life where everyday I can smile after reading someone's message or chatting with them, not feel upset and down. I'm sick and tired of feeling that pain in my chest and wishing tears would come so I don't feel the pain. I sick of pretending to everyone my life's back to normal when it isn't. I'm sick of my life. Period.

I wish someone could provide me with a book that has all the answers to life's problems, cause I'm tired of figuring it out myself.

--Xiang An at 4:49 PM






A busy week! First off we had to do Yeoman Service on Wednesday. Just stood along the road making sure nobody disrupted the runners at the end point. Which wasn't so bad, if we didn't have to wear half u with the scarf, making it look so dam retarded. And there was an uncle selling ice cream right beside the end point gate, so a lot of people were bugging us to let them out and buy. Sheesh. Just walk an extra 400m!

There was some Fuchun sec girl who was pissed at not finishing earlier and when I asked to step off the pavement when she was going home she just PMSed me "Car bang me how?" Sorry, I'm just going my JOB. Sheesh. Cut me some slack! Then it rained, so we all had to finish up our stuff in the rain and go home soaking wet, what a great (not) day.

Thursday. Skipped school cause I was sick. Invested the sec 1s at training, I wasn't there though.

Friday was the school's Track and Field meet. FINTAN GOT CHAMPION HOUSE! :D We were watching John Tan WK run the steeple chase. He was smiling at us when we were shouting at him to go faster. The slacker dog.

Walked around TP hub with Amos and gang after that. Had lunch at Pasta Mania. At first we wanted to drop by CHIJ TP and pay visit to Ms Mara, but then the rest decided against it. So basically we sat in macs and wasted time for nothing. Took the MRT home, slacked and went to sleep. Somehow I just can't study on Fridays. And Mid Years are coming! I am so screwed. Well, I better start revising my Biology and History. Don't want to fail again!

--Xiang An at 9:45 AM


Tuesday, April 08, 2008

So long not goodbye.

It's been an emotional couple of days, laughter followed by tears. A new low I thought I'd never be able to reach. Those in the know will get what I mean.

It's heartwrenching to say goodbye to someone after being with them with so long and sharing so many experiences. I guess goodbye is an inevitable part of life, the sadness that comes along with it I'll just have to deal with.

And yet, I feel perfectly normal at times, just to have the impact hit me when I least expect it. Trying to forget it seems a bit heartless, and lingering on it is just torturing myself. For now, numbing the pain with work and play is all I can do. Blasting loud music to drown out all thoughts of my sadness.

Anyway, thanks guys for helping to cheer me up with your jokes and words of comfort. I really appreciate it. Really hate you all for the whole hibiscus flower crack.

On a lighter note, I'm going for Drama Night this Friday. Something to look forward to, I guess. God knows I really need a break.

Was supposed to do Carrom for UG games day, but now we're just doing the prize giving instead. Apparently the reply was too late. Oh well, just a bit less things to deal with for now, I guess.

--Xiang An at 9:38 PM


Friday, April 04, 2008



Another tiring day of training. Was quite fun in some ways. We were just marking the plywood for sawing but after that we were breaking up the plywood 'spartan' style. Basically we were jumping up and down on the planks to break them. Jia Lei couldn't break any, he got owned by a PLANK. Muahaha.

Chatted with Selva and gang on the way back. We planned to play soccer at first but we were stopped by Kwang. Some 6.30 rule i thought only applied to street soccer court ._.

At home and tired. Sleepy too.

--Xiang An at 9:29 PM