Sunday, September 24, 2006



Finally had a lift of mood over the weekend.
While playing the new hero on DotA,
I found I could actually use it quite well.
Not as noob as the other heroes i use.
Not bad on Skeleton King too.

The exams are coming so I shall not talk too much on Dota.
if not exam fail confirm cannot play at all.

Well, I'm back to my cheerful, extra, annoying self.
Heck with what Gabriel and the rest say.
When I can't keep my mouth shut is when Im happy.
To hell with you complaining about my extraness.
Too cheerful to care muahaha
--Xiang An at 9:49 PM


Tuesday, September 12, 2006



every has their happy memories.
except me.

It's always a stormy day
It's always so gloomy.
My soul is getting drained right out of me

Why Why Why?!
This question has been on my mind so lately.
Can no longer tell who I am anymore.
My passion for life has been sucked right of me.
I used to be so optimistic and cheerful.
Right now I'm probably the Prophet Of Doom.
Seriously, sometimes I don't even have the energy to climb out of bed.
I just don't have the will to go on anymore.

I can no longer take what's going on with my life.
People treat me like I'm invisible.
When Mr Khoo sorted us into our revision groups.
Guess who was the last guy to be picked?
And the whole class was just arguing over whose group I should go
Like Im not even there!
Am I not worth any basic respect?
I can understand that I very extra and annoying at times.
But hey, you all ignore me all the time.
And give me your fucked up attitudes.
Even if you have to insult me,
At least it's attention.

What is wrong with my life?
I serious need a friend to confide in...
But if all of you are just out make me miserable,
I'd rather go insane.
I'd choose death over this life I have.
I'd rather choose to quit school
Over what?
Getting insulted? Being treated like trash?
You guys can talk about fairness and all that crap in front of me.
But you are all hypocrites.
Seriously, if you guys can't practise what you preach,
Don't ever talk about me being extra or noisy.
Cause you are much worse.

You think by insulting me,
It gives you more value?
I pity you.
Your popularity depends on not befriending me.
You guys are pathetic
--Xiang An at 10:15 PM