Thursday, May 31, 2007



went for the humanities conference yesterday. okay, not what I expected. wasn't very big, and i expected it to be more boring? lols. the talks were kind of dull.. almost fell asleep.. den woke up very late was late some more. din eat much la. mostly just talked.

okay, after that the activities time was kind of stupid. after like a long intro me william n luu ended up doing the forfeit. supposed to sing "circle circle dot dot" (people actually like this song?!) but ended up stoning in the end just din do anything. hahas. we pro ok. then thought the facilitator sec 3.. lols. dun blame me the girls were real short.

den i told qi jian and the rest i thought one of them was quite chio. end up they all force me go ask for her number. i didn't and end up qi jian go and ask. she jus dao. aft dat they told Ms Leow and she went there to ask for me -.- -bangs head on wall- seriously.. i was so embarassed i wanted to just drop dead. what kind of person go let their teacher help them ask one.. so stupid lah. those idiot friends.. all sabo me la. end up Ms Leow came back say she said exchange email better. So the idiots went to write their email and mine on a piece of paper and ask me to pass to her.. I just like followed them follow her and kept telling them i wasn't going to do it. she was hiding from me la. great job lah, so called "friends".. make me so pai seh. den ryan singh jus snatch the paper out of my pocket and went to the girl and THREW it to her in front of all her friends. after that i just didn't want to look le. then ryan try and drag me.. i pissed liao then try to kick him away.. den we all look like idiots =) i dun mind being one =) so like after that when they gave the token of appreciation to the facilitators they ask me to standing ovation.. diaos. lame dao lahs.

we saw a girl that looked like Rui Zhi.. Qi Jian wanted to ask for her number lors. so lame sia. then clement was doing stupid stuff the whole time.. end up our school look dam stupid lahs. even the girls oso kena by clement's dum pranks. =.=

went to magic hall after dat, got a black bicycle deck. den went down to ps to eat.. den realised mel at bunk. hahas. den went to park mall to buy 2 tricks. hahas. both need lighter de.. so i cannot show in school. too bad =(
--Xiang An at 10:04 PM


Monday, May 21, 2007



Okay dam fucked up today. Woke up coughing and sneezing and it kept going on throughout lessons. Got a blue form and came back home. Headache sia now. Dam pissed when I talked to Gabriel Goh and Darrell. Wtf man all call me slacker, scold me for not bringing cloth. Told them I received the call when I was going out to my grandma house they kao pei me say can leave my ah ma house earlier what. Wtf. Selfish bastard seh. Want me to be bu xiao zi just for him. It's not like I drive the car.. Hello? Like duh.

I had to tolerate my lao zi scolding me for going to buy the cloth at the last minute. And the whole time in the car the 2 old naggers keep telling me off for agreeing to buy the cloth. Now must take my friends' crap. Why the hell do I try to be helpful and stop giving attitude for. It was much better when I was giving attitude to people and everyone didn't think I was reliable. At least I didn't get so much crap for trying to help. Bloody bastards. Next time you want to tell me to buy something at the last minute, my answer will be no. So read this and remember it cause the next time you need something I'm not going to try and be a hero and take the whole load of bullshit from my parents and you. And you think having to pool another $5 for petrol is unreasonable. I didn't ask for that. Got a problem? Call my house and talk to my dad. He's the one who charges for patrol. It's like 50 cents a person, including me dumbass. So before you come and give me your condescending "You're a hopeless slacker" speech, why don't you just shut up and be grateful I even did anything. I got myself in deep shit to help you guys and this is the thanks I get? I'm so sorry your plans were screwed thanks to me. How about not asking me so your plans won't get screwed next time? You think I'm a slacker? FINE. I WON'T DISAPPOINT YOU! I'll give you attitude and never help you do anything again. Happy now?

Let me just send you 2more words: FUCK YOU
--Xiang An at 6:08 PM


Sunday, May 13, 2007



ok going to keep this short and sweet.

sick on fri =.=" den din go sch. hais. at least i delay the humiliation of being forced into the dance thing for the scgs campfire.. wth do dey force these things on our lvl all the time.. hais.

sat felt better. went 2 JB. Got my haircut. Den lao bu kp me say too long ltr sch reopen mus cut again. end up i must cut it till some retarded fucking short hair. -.- Finally got 2 collar shirts i like, and FSN comics. Den went to eat. After dat going home dat time lao zi found out he lost his passport lols. we search all ard den decide make police report den go home. lols. den at sg custom the officer ask us go office clear the documents den can go back. end up some guy return it all the way back here. =.=" wads up wif the distrust of malaysia? lols.

2day headache again.. blame last nite slp 2 late bah. den aft dat eat lunch came back 2 play com. hahas. so got no hw this weekend. sue me. well, dere was maths but i dun hv d ws. -evil laughs- happy mothers' day to mel mommie n lao bu. -psst- my lao bu still owe me $16 + this wk pocket $$. Lols son go aft mother for money. x)

thats it. gtg slp. dowan tmr headache again. zz. playing badminton wif aaron dey all tmr lols. den aft dat maybe go orchard? c how ba.
--Xiang An at 9:47 PM


Tuesday, May 08, 2007



They say laughter is the best medicine. Well it's not working for me. No matter how much I laugh or lame around she pops into my head when the laugh is over. Laughter kills the pain for such a short amount of time. I wish I had a permanent solution. I know that she doesn't like me, but I can't stop thinking about her. Maybe that's why I'm listening to so many emo songs and feeling so emo recently. I've tried to let go and move on but I keep turning back. I want this pain to go away but it won't. She still haunts my dreams and my thoughts. All I need is to just stop hoping. Please someone just come and please stop my heart from beating so I don't need to feel the shards piercing through it.

Love is like a rat. It lives in your heart and chews on it and hurts you like hell. Seriously. What will it take to kill this rat? If every thought about her feeds it, how do I get her out of my head? If it feeds on my dreams, how do I find the nightmares in my head? Someone come enlighten me please. I really cannot take this anymore. The wait is killing me. I know she has read what I wrote here but she chooses not to say anything. I don't know what she really thinks about me but I wish I could not care about it. I want to move on and forget her. I so want to pick up the phone and call her. Or maybe just take a bus after school to find her. But I won't. I want the desire to die so I can forget about love. Forget about it totally. Never touch or feel love again. Only fools will play with fire, get burned and not learn their lesson. I didn't learn it the past few times, but now I'm never going to light up that flame again.

Time heals all wounds. Well, if I have to endure this till the day I die so be it. Right now, misery and loneliness are the only company I need.
--Xiang An at 6:10 PM


Friday, May 04, 2007



Hey guys im back (not that you care).

Well, got some depressing news. Chances are I might be able to go for the Chennai trip cause I'm not a student leader. My only hope is to become a PL in scouts and Gabriel Goh sure tio that post. Sianz. Aw well. It's in november so worry about that later bah.

As for today, been trying to get William to go mug at KAP next week. He say he can't mug history with the noise -_-" His alternative is to go after exams to jio girls. -_-" Guess he wants to try a new pickup line =P

As for bio, dam fucked up. The stupid yeast make all our hand smell like vomit (George said Vanilla Vomit -_-) and the stupid tchr talk for like 30 mins. Nice, we had 1 hour to do and 1 period only got 50 min. So 10 min away from History.

After that was PSE. Super sianz. Go listen to Mr Lui "urging" us. lols. Den J Liew come kp us abt some ppl no badge no socks -_-; Den say wad man u sux n liverpool. Still say S-League got Yao Ming .. Jack sia he. Den went to clean up classroom for exams. So I had to cope box to bring all my stuff back (wtf) and carry it home. Should dam pain sia.

This weekend I must mug and stop using com (yeah right, like I will). Tmr tuition.. Sianz. Go dere funfair nia whr got study. Den jus now see my sis playing with a string. She sian diao until go siao lols.

Still havn't cfm wvps chalet yet.. Supposed to be 23 June but Jennie say last wk to pia hw one -_-" Den somehow I become the organiser.. Pro sehs. Den I think I made Hannah annoyed by being so naggy x) When I told Sean he ask me make sure all our year de da ming xin go. So that means I no nid ask him go lo liaos. Haha. Sean if you read this yes I'm niao-ing you [and im telling you cos you lag]
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[She hasn't given me an answer yet, but I think from what she told me the last time, I should get my stitches ready to sew my heart back together when it breaks. I need to buy a god damn lock and make sure I don't fall in love again.]
--Xiang An at 10:56 PM


Tuesday, May 01, 2007



Haven't updated in a long time! Been real busy the last couple of weeks. I can feel life draining out of me. -Thinks of more cliches- None.

Just came back from watching Spiderman 3! Real nice. I liked the new emo look x) Too bad my fringe not as long.. Oh well.. In 2 more months it will =) Too bad we didn't have time to queue for popcorn x) Would have loved to "accidentally" spill it on my sis =x Or maybe nachos with extra cheese .. Anyways, sis kept annoying me with stupid questions during the whole thing.. So hard to keep her quiet -_-

After the movie wanted to buy popcorn home x) so went to queue. den thought i saw mel mommie entering the cinema.. look dam alike sehs. or maybe is the real person lols. mom dun kill me pls x) I swear, girls are starting to all look the same. same height lor lols.

I didn't have a camera to take pics of me in my denim jacket.. I promise to upload it asap =) I don't care if you guys are going to ask me to not do it. You can't stop me muahaha... -Evil music plays-
--Xiang An at 5:35 PM